No Ambition

If you want to view paradise, simply look around and view it.” WONKA
There once was a boy. this boy just wanted to live a simple life. his goals were to have a kid, a wife and be able to provide a decent life for them. more than he had but not the life of royalty. he didn’t want lavish cars. he didn’t want a mansion. he just wanted some freedom and security. maybe no ambition isn’t the right word it’s more hyper focused ambition on simply just that life. that piece of dirt to call home. that tire swing ,that treehouse that picket fence. a room for each kid and nobody to tell him he can’t do something. he noticed that many people around him had goals of moving or making lots of money and going to college. he loved school. after all, it got him to this point, so why not love it. he loved his girlfriend, and he had faith the rest would follow. after somewhat of a slow start, he found a good job he bought a house, got married, and was well on his way to that simple life. much further ahead in life than most. during this, he worked hard in school and worked to move up the ranks every year he did just that. it wasn’t easy, and somewhere along the way, he did get distracted from his ambition in life for whatever reason he found himself disconnected from his own life. like it was a movie just playing out, and he was watching it. going through the motions hitting some bumps . it took an earthquake to wake him from his sleep, and believe me, he was shook. you keep thinking if I do this when this happens. if only one thing would fall in line. lifes a powder keg, it doesn’t take much to derail you. A simple match blows up the whole house. at times, it’s hard to take your own advice. sometimes we just want to stay lost sometimes we want to wallow in the despair because it’s easier. think about it. It’s easy to wake up and be pissed that things didn’t turn out how you’d like. maybe you have a shit job and a shit car, and everything is broken. It’s easy to point out the things that are wrong. you need to stop and think wow this is what I have. Don’t think about what you don’t have. “You can’t wait until life isn’t hard anymore before you decide to be happy,” Nightbirde. and you will fail. we all fail, and we all try. Thank God we get that opportunity. all I want to do is be with my family and provide for them. i want my kids to have the craziest childhood. I want them to have the highest possible standard of parenting to live up to. I want them to have unreasonable goals. I want them to look back at their childhood and say my dad was bat shit crazy in the best way. I want them to see me and their mom and say i want a love like that. An unrealistic Disney kinda love . “it’s that I can’t eat, can’t sleep, reach for the stars, over the fence,World series Kind of love.” It takes 2. dont read this and think I have all the answers. don’t say it’s easy for you to say. It’s not I have to wake up every day and have this ambition. these goals one step, one breath at a time its fucking hard because there’s no time to give . how do I give equal parts of myself to my kids my wife my job myself. there’s no parts left. I will tell you this: it’s definitely a mental game, and your attitude will affect all aspects of your life. some people have all the time and all the money and are the saddest people in the world. Remember , all things burn things are just things. memories are forever. your kids won’t remember how much stuff they had. they will remember how many memories you gave them.they will remember how much time you spent with them. cardboard boxes are cheap and yet the most fun thing in the world to a child. don’t let your ambition get in the way of your life. there won’t be time later for you to make it up. time is now time is oh so finite. Brace yourself for this life its not gonna stop. One minute its diapers next its college. Then its retirement. Love your family hard and fast. Enjoy every moment. It’s so hard to enjoy the moment when we’re in it. It’s so hard to stop and think one day these are the moments we’ll stop and think about. They are the only moments worth thinking about. I love my wife and kids more than anything. The best things to ever happen to me. Lifes not always easy but loving them is. You haven’t heard much from me on here. There’s just no time for my thoughts anymore. Im still here taking one step at a time. Thinking about my next steps. Enjoy your life. Falling and failing changed my life. We got a long way to go. I leave you with a song that hits for me. My family is my dream that came true. As always much love from the wessmans. Adapt and love.