Elevate-raise to a more important or impressive level
I have always known what I’ve wanted. House, family, job etc… over the past 6 or so months what I want has slightly changed. Who I’m has dramatically changed. I know I want a more important/impressive level of life. You get back what you give out. If you give out positivity and love it finds its way back to you. I’ve met some great people on my recent journey through life. I can only hope that when they think of me they see the person I see in the mirror. When I used to look in the mirror I saw a boy playing house. Now I see a man living life. I had to fall and lose it all to realize how much I really want it.
I have new dreams and goals. Maybe I’ll get them maybe I won’t. Maybe they’ll change again. One things for sure It feels good to have goals again. Adapt or die. I’m currently about to be out of my house its the farthest in escrow that I’ve gotten. I’m about to start a new exciting job as an electrician, which is the exact job I’ve always wanted. Now that I’m 29 and time is running out on some career options. I’ve been tossing around the idea of fighting fires. It’s a tough job to get into and I’d have to do it all before 35ish or I’ll never be accepted. I think I would be great at it because of the little to no fear that i have. No matter if I’m a full time fireman or just a volunteer. I want to save people and this planet and doctor is never going to happen. They have these firemen that parachute down into forrest to fight fires. That sounds like me all the way. I want to elevate my life.
I’m still waiting for the girl I’m waiting for. I’m not expecting to find her. I’m just hoping she’s out there. I’ve had tiny feelings for some girls after I lost the one. Can’t be sure of them couldn’t trust them. Elevate your game. I’ve never been the guy to sit down by a pretty girl and buy her a drink. Not that its easy, the fear of rejection is still there a little but once you’ve been rejected by the love of your life others rejecting you really doesn’t feel that bad. I have been called oldman. That wasn’t cool I’m in the best shape of my life but she was 22 so to her I get it.
Last night me and my coworkers played bags and met some very cool, interesting and beautiful people. It was my exes birthday and I resisted all urges to text her. I have an internal struggle with my x because she was it for me for so long and we were friends first. So part of me wants to talk to her, make sure she’s ok, wish her happy birthday etc… The other part of me is mad at her and never wants to see or hear from her again because of what she did. It just sucks because I still care for her. The struggle is real. I wish I could say I hate her and write her off. I don’t hate her or anyone for that matter. I have no room for hate in my heart. Hate lowers your life I’m going the other direction. I’m on the up and up.
Today is arm day at the gym. I was going everyday to the gym, but I started feeling weaker I couldn’t give my body enough protein to heal. Now I go every other day. I plan on doing today what I do everyday. Something nice for someone and positive words all over the place. I’m gonna elevate this life grab on we’ll go up together.
As always thanks for reading I love those that do and don’t read my post.
Adapt or die.