Generational strength.

The greatest discovery of my generation is that a human being can alter his life by altering his attitudes.
I’ve been thinking about life lately. about my mom,about my daughter, about the future. as you know my mom passed so it makes sense that I would. My mom left a big hole in my life. Life is fleeting. I wish I had more time. my daughter is coming into her own and she fills my heart its hard to be sad when she’s around but sometimes when I’m alone I feel that hole. Gwens learning and shes growing. I’m getting older hopefully wiser. Did my mom inpart what I need to be in the world. Did I learn what I need to know ? Am I who I’m supposed to be. Did she know I loved her .pieces of my mom are in me. Just as pieces of me are in my daughter. we grow we pass things on. some day my daughter will pass things along. I hope she takes the courage and joy of our ancestors and gives it to her kids. I hope I get to see that. my mom gave me so much she showed me joy ,she tought me how to love.I could go on for days but I won’t. its sad but not all of it. I spent the day with my daughter and she is the sweetest little thing. She hugs me now and kisses me . Her kisses are like gentle headbutts she shoves her nose to my nose.I see my mom in her. I see my mom alot of places though. I was thinking on my dad and how he has so much time left without my mom and I realized I have my whole life left without my mom. that makes me sad you know we see pictures of the past but we can’t really ever live in it. I never got to really know my grandparents and my daughter will never know my mom. I’m grateful she still has 3 grandparents she can know. I can show her photos and tell stories of my mom, but us humans are so much more than our pictures and our stories. our presence our body Language, our reactions, our souls and our love can’t be see through photos. it has to be felt and lived. thats not to say that when we’re dead we’re gone. we hold our ancestors in our DNA

“We inherit gifts from our ancestors often taken for granted. Each of us contains within us this inheritance of soul. We are links between the ages, containing past and present expectations, sacred memories and future promise.”Edward Sellner

So much of our families history gets lost over the years but we are just like our ancestors. we fight the same fights they fought. we love as hard as they loved. We just want our kids and our kids kids to be ok. Death Is sad it is going to happen. we can’t stop it. we can live though. we can live up to those that came before and for those that are yet to come. love you mom.miss you.mom give me strength to pull the sword from the stone.YOUR LAGACY LIVES ON.

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